Stampin' Up!

Exciting news for today, with the acceptance of my husband and his wonderful support, I signed back up to become a Stampin' Up! demonstrator.. YEAH!!! This is very exciting for me. It's a wonderful creative outlet for me that I absolutely love to share with my friends and family!! Plus I have the most wonderful upline, Nic, so am looking forward to starting up my old hobby again with a fresh upline!! I have 3 cards I need to get on here, but apparently I need to get some sort of software from the camera on the computer to download pics.. This is so not my thing, my hubby is the computer genius :) So I'll get the software on here and start downloading pictures! Also, I have a quilting retreat at the end of the month, I'm thoroughly anticipating, as Lord knows I have plenty of projects to finish and work on..

Until next time...Cheers!!

Another onion layer shed.

So try to follow the randomness of this note. I've started and stopped that I'm just going to plug at it to get some kind of post out.. :) So since losing my mom, I've noticed that going through the grieving process is like shedding layers of an onion. It makes you cry, you need to get through layers to get to the core, and it can be bittersweet. So I'm really terrible about sending thank yous....really bad. Just an idea of how bad I am, if you read my first post you will know that I lost my mom on January 26 from injuries from a car accident. I use to be a Stampin' Up! demonstrator for five years and quit last year before my son was born as I know myself and know that I would be way too overwhelmed to have two little ones, work, plus make time for SU. Anywho, if you stamp, especially are a demonstrator, people believe they are going to get a homemade card. See this is where I am bad. I feel so terrible if I have to buy a card, as I have a whole room with stamping products. However, if I don't have time to make a card, they just don't get one..I know it's terrible and I feel terrible. So anyway, feeling so appreciative of everyone who was there for me and my family when my mom past and receiving homemade cards from others, and knowing my dad had written like 400+ thanks yous (he used the funeral home cards they provided), I thought I could do like 50 or so. So I went on to make them, which took me forever and five years and now am making myself send them before I send Christmas cards to people. Now to the point of all of this...So I thought I was strong and "accepted" that my mom was gone. Ya, well as I'm starting to finally write them out, I'm so not!! I believed for awhile that yes time does make things getter better, um notta, I believe now that it's a numbness that starts becoming unnumb as time goes on. As I was writing out thank yous to my family, it was like a flood of emotion came back. Getting the phone call finally being able to realize what happened and replaying the hospital stay, hearing her progress/decline, hearing when we had to make the decision, hearing what friends and family were saying to me, being at the funeral again and seeing her one last time. It's like my heart is filling again with anxiousness and sadness. It sucks. Friends and family who have not gone through this will ask me all sorts of questions about losing mom, and I'm very open about answering them and going back to the time because to me people have to know for their own closure and knowing that I will be okay. Plus it's therapeutic to me. When I got the phone it was on a Thursday, my day off of work, the kids were in the dining room, I hadn't showered yet (it's my day off, ha), I was getting ready to go to my parents that night as mom and I were going to be going on a quilting retreat in Spring Valley, Minnesota, with her best friend and her daughters and others. We totally looked forward to the retreats, they were so fun, relaxing, and productive. We would talk about them as soon as we got home from the last one. Plus it was time for us to share together. So my husband called me on the phone that Thursday afternoon adn said "Lynnae, your dad called me and said your mom's been in a serious accident, I'm on my way home and will get you and the kids." I didn't know what to think, I just said "are you kidding, because that's really low and not funny, tell me your kidding." Obviously he wasn't and I could tell in his voice. I don't know what overcame me but I immediately got in a zone. I just paced back and forth thinking what do I need to do, who do I call, how can I check on her myself, what do I do, what do the kids need.... Then it hit me call the emergency room. So I did and I talked to a nurse who said she just arrived via Mayo One (Mayo Clinic's helicopter) and they had to resucitate her on the scene. It's like I didn't hear it, I asked him what he said and he said she quit breathing, but is breathing now, and that she was in serious condition and that's all he knew. Then I just thought who do I call next, my first call was her best friend who was going with us to the retreat. She couldn't believe it either obviously and when I go to the hospital there was Betty and her daughter Christa. They are our other family. I continued to call my aunt and uncle who live nearby and they didn't answer, as I found out later they were on their way to the hospital too. My aunt later told me that she replayed the messages and was glad my dad called to tell what happened as she couldn't understand my message. I didn't even think of calling my brothers until I was on my way. My one brother lived in Portland, Oregon at the time and didn't get my message until later in the day and my oldest brother lives in Mount Vernon, Iowa, and didn't get my message, until his wife got home, and I found out he was in Switzerland I believe.

So we get to the hospital and there are loved ones in a small waiting room waiting to see her. A nurse comes in to say they will be wheeling her by to take her to her room, but encouraged my dad and myself to come say hello, etc., though she was not awake...she never came to because of the extent of her injuries.

Okay, so I'm so extrodinarily sorry for doing this, but I'm not in the mode of writing this and haven't been since I did the thank yous and that was at work..So until I get in the mode again. Just remember Carpe Diem!!

I am

You are The Star

Hope, expectation, Bright promises.

The Star is one of the great cards of faith, dreams realised

The Star is a card that looks to the future. It does not predict any immediate or powerful change, but it does predict hope and healing. This card suggests clarity of vision, spiritual insight. And, most importantly, that unexpected help will be coming, with water to quench your thirst, with a guiding light to the future. They might say you're a dreamer, but you're not the only one.

What Tarot Card are You?
Take the Test to Find Out.

so....

So....I started this post last night, almost done, but I fell asleep. So I decided today to finish it up. HOWEVER, by one-year-old had apparently another idea for this post. Kids like computers, intriguing to them, so as he went off the couch, he took my computer with him, which deleted the entire post..apparently this is why I should do this while the kids are sleeping :) So off to play with him until his nap and hopefully his big sis will also be sleeping so I can start over. Gotta love the babes :)

Last night we went to a wedding that was very beautiful. It was simple and very pretty and there were quite a few nice touches to everything. As the guests came into the wedding, they had someone there taking pictures of the family, couples, etc. Before the picture you signed your names in a photobook where your picture was going to go. During the ceremony rather than a unity candle being lit, they had a sand ceremony where they had their own bottles of sand and combined each of the bottles into one for the same representation as a unity candle, but there obviously was different wording explaining it, very cool I thought! Also, I'm sure others have seen it, but instead of one cake, the had two sheet cakes and two stands with cupcakes on the 2nd and bottom tier, an assortment of cookies on the 3rd tier and the top tier had a small cake. I liked how they had such a great variety. Then the head table was in a square rather than a long table facing everyone. I like both, but the thing with the square is that I'm sure it's easier for the party to talk. It was an overall great wedding. Congrats Kari and Bryan!!

Cheers for now!

Charles Schulz Philosophy

Here's a great e-mail I received today from a wonderful friend, Kim (Hi Kim!!). Hope you enjoy it!

The Charlie Schulz Philosophy
(This is marvelous!! Scroll thru slowly and read carefully to receive and enjoy full effect)

The following is the philosophy of Charles Schulz, the creator of the 'Peanuts' comic strip. You don't have to actually answer the questions. Just read the e-mail straight through, and you'll get the point.
1. Name the five wealthiest people in the world.
2. Name the last five Heisman trophy winners.
3. Name the last five winners of the Miss America pageant.
4. Name ten people who have won the Nobel or Pulitzer Prize.
5. Name the last half dozen Academy Award winners for best actor and actress.
6. Name the last decade's worth of World Series winners.

How did you do?
The point is , none of us remember the headliners of yesterday.
These are no second-rate achievers.
They are the best in their fields.
But the applause dies..
Awards tarnish.
Achievements are forgotten.
Accolades and certificates are buried with their owners.

Here's another quiz. See how you do on this one:
1. List a few teachers who aided your journey through school.
2. Name three friends who have helped you through a difficult time.
3. Name five people who have taught you something worthwhile.
4. Think of a few people who have made you feel appreciated and special!!
5. Think of five people you enjoy spending time with.

Easier?

The lesson:
The people who make a difference in your life are not the ones with the most credentials..
the most money...or the most awards.
They simply are the ones who care the most.

'Don't worry about the world coming to an end today. It's already tomorrow in Australia !'

''Be Yourself. Everyone Else Is Taken!'

Random....

Those "security" words that are somewhat italiazed in a box or however you would like to describe them....who thinks of those??? Some are words, some are words with numbers, some are just letters. Really, is there a job out there for that!!

Traditions....

So for some reason when I'm at work that seems to be when I do the most thinking about life, what things need to get done for projects, around home, what I need to shop for, things about life in general. Maybe it's because it's quieter there than at home. No one is pulling at me, jumping on me (the kids use me as a gymnasium at home, not Brian jumping on me, ha....that would lead to a different post, ha), no singing on the tops of lungs, crying, you get the jist. So anyways back to the point. So as I was sitting there today and again reading different blogs (on breaks of course, haha), I was reading about different traditions different families have. I love that!! So now I'm inspired to figure out different little traditions with my family. One was seeing if there is paint or something I can get the kids to put their handprints on fabric, so when I have time or a quilting retreat where I need a project (haha, if you were to see my "stash" I have enough materials to last me to retirement and I'm only 32, plus I have material I inherited from mom, but lucky for me that's at their house yet), I can make some type of wall hanging, lap quilt, something with those squares of their prints. Oh....maybe I could get them to draw and see how that develops as they grow along with how their hand prints get bigger. My lands, I think I'm onto something!! See one thing you'll learn about me is I have many ideas, but get too overwhelmed with everyday life and the house and kids that creativeness doesn't happen, but I absolutely love reading ideas and thinking of them. So feel free to share!!! Anyways I love the idea of traditions and would love to hear what others do.

So Extra is on and Sanjia is on (American Idol contestant)...I CANNOT stand that guy!!! I hear his name and I squirm, I see him and get the heeby jeebies. He needs to not be seen just like Omarosa, who the hell is she and why do people waste their time on her!! Man-oh-man!!

So I have more I want to say, but am looking at my hubby and seeing his sleepy eyes, which are making me sleepy and need to get some card ideas picked out so I can get material together and go stamp away!!!

Have a good night and Cheers!

P.S. Something also to be warned about with me....I'm well known for interupting, I really don't mean to do it to be rude, but I can't help it when people are talking and I have a thought or question about that right then because I know if I wait until later it won't make as much sense. So anyways if at all you read these posts and notice I may leave ya hanging it's because my thoughts jump, also known as ADD :)

TTFN